e f f o r t

So I hardly ever go to class, right? Well I've been going the past week + today, & it feels good. ..to be on top of my game again. Focused.

&I ask for my grade today in Music. I have a low A. Based solely on quizzes & tests (the only things I ever show up for.) Quizzes & tests I cram for ten minutes before class. &So I think to myself how I'd do .. if I just try. ..& that goes for all my classes. I can do so much better, in everything. So why don't I put a little effort into things that matter, instead of things that bring me down?

I want big things, &I dream huge. I'm getting tired of people who want things they're not willing to work for, including relationships. &People who whine when they can't get what they want, when they don't even try.

I'm ready to give it my all. I'm tired of wasting potential for fear of not reaching the destination desired. I know I messed up, but I gotta fall a little for the lessons to hit me that hard. No more fcking up, promise.

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As for other things. It's getting old. I'm tired of falling into this routine.

I could honestly care less. Happy?

"&That's that."