So the past few days have been a huge rollercoaster.
Thursday was nice. Fcking great, actually. (: I'd have to say our Indian lunch was one of the highlights of my week. It's been awhile since I laughed that hard, that much. Dine & dash with Denny's. Bowling &pushups. Bumping into old friends. It was just lovely. (=
Friday got to sleep in, IN his arms. <3>lovely girls. Got in a fight, again. /: But I guess the night ended well cos I got to sleep in his arms. (= Sorry for the drool, babe. (;
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o n e . So I now know what some of my biggest pet peeves are: LIARS, & people who can't MAN UP & take responsibility for their actions. People who blame the world for the consequences they endure because they can't take a step back & think to themselves, what did i do for this to happen? Seriously people need to grow up. Yeah I make mistakes but at least I own up to them, no matter how miniscule or huge.
t w o . I am utterly distressed with myself. I'm unhappy with a lot of the choices I'm making. I can't believed I stooped so low, twice this week. What's wrong with me. -.-
t h r e e . I think I just need to not give a crap anymore. It's the only way to let go of what's eating at my mind. So here I go, letting go. I could honestly care less.
Thursday was nice. Fcking great, actually. (: I'd have to say our Indian lunch was one of the highlights of my week. It's been awhile since I laughed that hard, that much. Dine & dash with Denny's. Bowling &pushups. Bumping into old friends. It was just lovely. (=
Friday got to sleep in, IN his arms. <3>lovely girls. Got in a fight, again. /: But I guess the night ended well cos I got to sleep in his arms. (= Sorry for the drool, babe. (;
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o n e . So I now know what some of my biggest pet peeves are: LIARS, & people who can't MAN UP & take responsibility for their actions. People who blame the world for the consequences they endure because they can't take a step back & think to themselves, what did i do for this to happen? Seriously people need to grow up. Yeah I make mistakes but at least I own up to them, no matter how miniscule or huge.
t w o . I am utterly distressed with myself. I'm unhappy with a lot of the choices I'm making. I can't believed I stooped so low, twice this week. What's wrong with me. -.-
t h r e e . I think I just need to not give a crap anymore. It's the only way to let go of what's eating at my mind. So here I go, letting go. I could honestly care less.
The real problem was that I loved you a little too much, & you loved me not quite enough.
f o u r . Tired of being everyone's backbone. Of being strong for everyone. I'm not perfect, people. Sometimes I can't carry the weight. I just wish, that as I hold everyone else together, there could be someone to hold me together as I break as well. Just one person. One person would be enough.
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It's coming.
&Scared as fuck.
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