that ain't love at all.

Myxx - That Ain't Love At All. That song pinpoints how I feel exactly to the T.

Will someone please tell me, am I wrong to feel this way? After all the shit that went down, there are still tiny moments throughout the day where I find myself missing you. Where I want to cry but know that I can't. I still care so much for you. I still love you times a thousand. What a bitch; I was waiting for something to slap me in the face to let me realize how much I needed to let go. &Who would've guessed .. something really did hit me. I just wish it didn't hurt this much. After everything, I still pray for you before I go to sleep. I still wish good things for you. But at the end of the day, I don't even know what all these feelings mean. Because the person I fell for was like .. a facade. Someone I can't find anymore. I try to think of the person I fell for every time I think of you, but the only thing that runs through my mind is the person who's hurt me the most. The person I didn't know existed. The person who was there all along, but I was too blind& naive to really see ..

"My heart's attacked by the things you say, my body's numb.

Your love is like last year; it's over, it's done."

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On a better note, things with Father's Day were good. [: I miss our complete family, but hey, the broken one ain't so bad. If things didn't happen the way they did, I would've never had Baby AJ. Or Tita. in my life. We had crabs, my ultimate favorite. Life really is good. Just gotta appreciate the things you have. &Forget the things you lost or don't anymore. <3